A Thoroughly Foul Mood
That's me in a nutshell today folks. I've just had word that my Calgary friend KS is not able to come to town this weekend... Poo.
I'm pissed for a couple of reasons. The first being that KS is a hoot and he was destined to be one of, if not the life of the party (no disrespect for anyone else at the party intended). Rarely have I come across someone whose storytelling skills can engage an entire room of people the way that KS's can... anyway, he will be sorely missed on Saturday.
The second reason... and this is something that stings a little more, is that I was so looking forward to seeing the big guy. Typically when he comes into town for a visit, he ends up spending most of his time with the "boys". At times I feel like an after thought... like "Hey, maybe we should give Beatrice a call and let her know what's going on". Sometimes I don't even get the call. It kind of hurts.
This weekend, some of the "boys" are out of town, so it was just going to be the two of us hanging out, doing what we do best... mellow stuff: movies, chilling, chatting etc... It's been a really long time, like years and years, since I've had a chance to hang out one on one with a guy who used to be closer to me than pretty much anyone else on the planet. Obviously, when a friend gets married, your friendship has to change... that I can deal with, as it has happened quite frequently of late. I can count the number of single friends I have on one hand... I digress.
I know I am just being selfish. I'll get over it. But it does make me ponder about what I really would like most here in this town... some good old-fashioned male friends. I love being friends with guys... you get the same kind of "protected and adored" feeling that you get from a boyfriend without all the potential bullshit and games that can come from a relationship. A guy friend is there to protect your honour. A guy friend will tell you that you look pretty, even when you don't. A guy friend can pretend to be your boyfriend when some loser guy is hitting on you. A guy friend thinks it is hysterical when you accidentally break wind.
I'll say it again. I really miss having guy friends. Don't get me wrong, girlfriends are awesome too... just different and I love them just as much... just different. I also thought that all guys had girls as friends and that it was no big deal. Apparently I was wrong. I have yet to meet any boy in this town who has any. It seems that my best guy pals are unique in that they are capable of having a non-sexual friendship with girls... Where are all the other??? There must be others out there dammit!
WHERE ARE YOU???
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