There is nothing like a good old-fashioned beating across the head to get things kickstarted. As you all know, the old girl has been in a rut as of late... see any previous posting from the last couple of months and you'll know what I am talking about. I know this, you know this, my cat even knows this.
The solution to getting out of this rut? After much thought, in plain and simple terms:
I need to get the *#@! over myself
8 Lack of mojo? Get the *#@! over it. I'm good enough. I'm smart enough. Gosh Darnit. People like me... somehow I forgot that. No more! Get the *#@! over it!
8 Stressing about the new job that starts in a month; specifically doubting that I can actually do the job? Get the *#@! over it. No one else has any doubts that I can do it. I know deep down that I can. Why I am so stressed out about the unknown in this case is a complete mystery to me. Get the *#@! over it!
8 Feelings of loneliness and disconnectedness? Get the *#@! over it! How do I get the *#@! over it? I just have to. Get out more. Join a club. Go to poetry readings, the beach, the park. Get the *#@! over it!
8 Lack of creativity? Get the *#@! over it. I moved to Toronto to become the famous and talented writer I know I can be. Writer's block, Schmiter's block... Get back to writing. I believe in my work and my ideas. Get the *#@! over it!
Get the *#@! over myself
I am so looking forward to having the old Bea back. She really is a cool chick.